The coming of the most wonderful time of the year.

Everything is starting to look like Christmas already, and I can't help but wonder how this year is going to end.

I wish I brought my book to read during work today. So in substitution, I bought a packet of reduced sugar soyamilk from cheers and read all of its contents and nutritional value. I. Know. Right. Fancypants much, and I reckon that this passage is going to consist of alot of 'and's and things that don't make sense - welcome to my life because most of the time, my life doesn't make much sense to me and it gets a little depressing at times. I was so green today. I thought I could be a little colorful because it's saturday and I'm always colorful on saturdays, but today, I was just green, and more green - very unexpected epiphany that I'm gonna stab myself for. Guess sometimes when you think you're special, you get too absorbed in this entire bubble of false uniqueness. It doesn't exist and I'm not that special afterall. Like what I always say, why bother having such high expectations when all that's waiting are just waves of disappointments crashing through you. I mean, like there wasn't enough phases of disappointments in the past 23 years of my life. Good Lord, I'm growing older every second and I'm seeing too much of the ugly and too little of pretty. But I guess through the ugly, I differentiate the pretty. And amazingly, there're alot of pretty people in my life. I hope they have pretty lives to live on, especially on days that I'm not there. I shouldn't have felt green today. Saturday mornings on the lawn are gonna be really rare for me when school starts, so  I should really start treasuring what's left and...

carpe the freaking diem