Love at first play.

Crazy, by Stars Go Dim

These kind of songs never fails to make me go soft inside, and secretly wish that some people, in the future, would say such stuff to me - this is starting to sound like a joke already. This is the kind of song that makes me feel that, maybe perhaps falling in love ain't that bad. You know what, I'll regret this post, but hey, I can't deny that sometimes, such thoughts go through my mind, y'know? And it's the holidays, I refuse to do any work-related stuff when I'm at home, so I drown myself in my own tears while rewatching Grey's Anatomy and I can't help but want a McDreamy too. There's McDreamy, McSteamy and McDog. McDog died already and I cried like a girlygirl. I'm taking all the time in the world to go through G.A because I know when it ends, I'll feel so empty like a part of me was eaten away.

You know what, I need to stop getting attached to inanimate, unrealistic paraphernalia.

But then again, maybe because it's inanimate and unrealistic, that's why I like it alot.

Hope your holidays were good, because mine was. :)

You can take it all, cause I'm gone.

I wanted to tell you guys about my recent obsession with something, but ever since tuesday passed by quietly with my heavy heart thumping out loud throughout the long bus rides I made myself take, I figured that something has to be done.

And then I chanced upon this song.

Tonight is gonna be one of the most depressing nights of my life. The day wasn't any better, but just for the record, I'm gonna make tonight the worst ever by watching a war film and sneak on the chance to bawl my eyes out for everything that has happened recently. And if it doesn't work, I still have another war film to watch. And another.

That should be enough, otherwise, I have to find my Titanic DVD and force myself to look at Jack Dawson fade into the dark waters, never to be lived again, except in the hearts of some. But on the other hand, I'm smelling that Titanic ain't gonna work that well for me because it didn't really happen.

No, Titanic won't make it. I'll let myself read Plath and Hemingway.

I'm all prepared.

Bittersweet.

“This photograph is my proof. There was that afternoon, when things were still good between us, and she embraced me, and we were so happy. It did happen. She did love me. Look for yourself.”

This is my proof, Duane Michals, 1974

This bittersweet emotion.
The usage of past tense in this kills me.

Thank you very much.

:(/:)

Somewhere only we know.

Although this could have been more properly titled as "Somewhere Only I Wanna Go," it wouldn't have made much sense. Maybe all I wanted to say that this is for my keepsake.

I got my life in a suitcase, I'm ready to run, run, run away.

Cinque Terre, Italy

Pisa, Italy

Santorini, Greece

Santorini, Greece, again because this was the photo that made me fell in love with the place.

Wisteria Tunnel, Japan 

 Grand Canyon, US Arizona

Singita Sabi Sand, South Africa

Colmar, North Eastern France

Dining Alfresco Cafe, Italy

Christmas Markets in Nuremberg, Munich

Rainbow Waterfall, Sugei Lembing - Kuantan, Peninsular Malaysia 

Credits to the respective owners! Most of them were on travel sites, so no credits were shown. =/

One of my assignments require me to use a font from Switzerland. I found no pretty fonts, but many pretty places in Switzerland.

And how am I supposed to end this off? Impossibru :(

Story of my life.

Nothin' goes as planned.
Everything will break.
People say goodbye.
In their own special way.
All that you rely on
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning
But find you in the day

Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out.

Everything will change.
Nothin' stays the same.
And nobody here's perfect.
Oh but everyones to blame.
All that you rely on
And all that you can save
Will leave you in the morning
And find you in the day

Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out.
No I cannot get you out.
No I cannot get you.

Everything is dark.
It's more than you can take.
But you catch a glimpse of sun light.
Shinin', Shinin' down on your face.

Oh you're in my veins
And I cannot get you out
Oh you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth.
Oh you run away
Cause I am not what you found
Oh you're in my veins 
And I cannot get you out.
No, I cannot get you out.
No, I cannot get you out.

Oh no, I cannot get you.

Neverland.

I'm actually being kept sane by the insane amount of things that I need to complete on a daily basis. And yet at the same time, I find the time to daydream and think about dark stuff such as the Illuminati and all that weird conspiracies. I should stop researching so much on such stuff. It's getting a little hard to live by when all I see are stuffs connected to these conspiracies -_- 

Feeling like a Sherlock when I found a card game that predicted the world disasters 7 years before it happened. 

On the other hand, I don't know how my search term 'Old Calendars' revealed such images to me. But since it's in my one of my favourite colors and the images are lovely, I thought I'd share. 

And this, by far, is my favourite picture of the King of Pop. 

Cold & snuggly weather goes really well with Coffee Black or Hot Chocolates Marshmallows and the latter never fails to remind me of Jiabao.

Lastly, Ackky says "Hello!"

you're like a dream come true, two.

I should be doing up my flash animation right now, but I kinda miss spending time with myself on a weekend. So here goes some self-love via typing and images.

I have alot to say, but sometimes, or rather, all the time, words never seem to be enough to convey how I really feel towards this entire phase. I'd say it's slightly leaning towards the feeling of general apathy towards the human race, but then again amidst this bunch of so-called human race, contains the people I love most, and the people I'd die for anytime.

Meh aside, I've been window-online-shopping (cheapos rule!) and I came across a few items that I really want to own. Besides the Ipad, these items are such a welcome to my life, plus I think I'm just a sucker for the colors, will you just take a deep breath and look at the second image below?

*exhales*

credits: favim, stylesavage

Heels, I know right, I'm semi-proud of myself too. And that shade over there is insanely gorgeous. So hello friends who do not know that I like such stuff, I like such stuff.

& this is a preview of something. :)  

credits: beautyfool.com

And I thought I'd have this image over here:

- My Black, double shot in a Starbucks cup (that has a long history behind it :) 

Okay, I kid. It's just Nescafe's Gold in it. 

A wall of two generations (and 2 kitties)

And I came across this really cool place selling some handmade rings. I figured that I could make one on my own as well, since I have *most* of the materials that were seemingly used to make the rings. Quite liking the results! Especially the one on the right, looking like a peacock ore, aye? :)  & so, I made 2 ring charms even though I have 8 fingers and 2 thumbs, but no ring blanks. 

A party on Thursday - that I don't really feel like going. But considering the prizes for the lucky draws are along the lines of a Canon S95, Ipad and other fancy wancy gadgets that I'd love to have, might as well. Times like these I wish I had one of the above shoes. Heh.

Born to be Tardy.

Yes, that is unfortunately me. I have a list of middle names that include 'tired, tardy, think too much, daydream, sandwich, fruit girl, etc' which I feel, sometimes might help me to curb some of the bad habits. But the list goes on forever and I don't know what is me after a short period of time. Oh well.

In anycase, a couple of posts back, I wrote that I wanted to join the Feb Photo a Day - a challenge that I failed with 20hours because OCD could comply with the fact that I started late. This time round, I took the liberty to remind myself in my organizer, and highlighted March 1st - just so that I can remember what's going on, and embark on this challenge FOR REAL. 

And so, here's March Photo a Day challenge, from FatMumSlim! 

1. Up - what I see when I look up from my insanely cluttered table.

2. Fruit - Zespri! 

3. My Neighbourhood 

4. Bed Side

5. Smile!

6.  5pm & squeezing the shit out in MRT.

7. Something I wore - a lovely gift from Jiabao

I have to snap photos of Singapore in her glorifying state of eternal summer and sweaty people, but the gloomy clouds don't seem to comprehend my inexplicable desire for a couple of blue-sky pictures. Let's just say, I hope the weather brightens up this week because assignments make me bald and I really love thick, gorgeous hair. It's almost a ninety percent confirmation that I am becoming into a female-female, just that my love IT gadgets and lego watches doesn't seem to be fading away. 

Plus, the gloomy, wet weather seems to be egging on my laziness - especially when I firmly decide on the night before that I should cover some miles in the evening.

*small voice* I kinda want an iPad - le sigh.

I like (creative) challenges!

hello it's lynette.

I spent the whole afternoon doing up an Art Blog on Tumblr, and frankly, I'm quite satisfied with the results. :) All the scanning, illustrations/drawing, editing and uploading was done by yours truly! Thankfully Tumblr has some preset themes that was really close to what I had in mind (though not exact), if not I would have died doing all the html from scratch! I was hoping I could get a customized domain, but silly me forgot about the cost, which was about US$10 per year. While that's a reasonable sum of money, I didn't see the point of paying for a domain when I keep switching URLs all the time. I'm just too fickle to settle on one.

I deleted my photojournal and will probably incorporate photojournalism into amessybun. Oh incase you have yet to notice, I illustrated my URL (www.amessybun.blogspot.com) and scanned it as my header image, instead of the galactic image that is way overused (but that doesn't mean I love outerspace any lesser. I still yearn to live there!)

It's so minimalistic right now, I can't take my eyes off it. Hahaha, I think this inspires me to draw/paint a little more, just so I can fill the artblog up. I'm so excited to the extent that I'm quite cool with being unemployed, yknow?

And here, are the snippets of all that drawing/coloring/scanning/editing. Thank God for Adobe Software & Canon Printers!

My best friend knows me best.

It's undeniable that I have my laptop as my best friend. I spend most of time being with it, while I'm awake and I'm so please to brag to you guys that my laptop knows me best. This was what happened when I decided to take a break from the massive research I've been doing, and try to download some PDF file of guitar chords.

It says: isounde weak
Read as: I sound weak.

I KNOW RIGHTTT.

Besides the fact that it doubts my human existence, we're pretty much inseparable.

"It's quite likely that you worry much too much"

And so, I'm 21 now. It excites me to a certain extent that birthday is pretty close (or is it the same!?) as charlieissocoollike. Hahaha.

In anycase, I've been researching on numerology for one of my projects and I came across this website:

http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

Don't get fooled by the poor aesthetics of the website. Enter your name and what it says about yourself is creepily true for some of the points - well, at least for me! I entered 'lynette lee' and this was what it 'interpreted' my name to my personality. 

Okay, So I'm pretty 'Ancient' and a 'Bird.' Hmm.

 

Okay lah, maybe I was interested in it because it was praising me throughout the description - that I'm all loving and kind. Hahaha. If only you knew how many people I would LOVE to kill on a daily basis. 

Funny how it knows I require balance, considering I'm a Libra. 

Oh gosh, this is such a oestrogen post.  

I want.

 This list will keep piling. Money please fall from the sky or something - for this few weeks or so.