This is for you

You died in my arms. You died in my arms! You freakin’ died, and then you left instructions that I wasn’t allowed to save your life. 

You wanna know what I’m scared of? I’m scared of everything. I’m scared to move. I’m scared to breathe. I’m scared to touch you. I can’t lose you. I won’t survive. And that’s your fault. You made me love you, you made me let you in. 

And then you freaking died in my arms.

I'm scared.